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Ohhh how I've neglected my blog!!! :( sorry guys! I've been mad
distracted but I'm back!

I will have mad updates later...I thought I was in the mood for
blogging.....

But I'm not.
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AWESOMEEE article....a must read!
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I need help with something.....any computer geeks around? Hit me up on
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Soooo this is just me updating, I don't have anything to talk about
really...but u know me I can ramble. So Billions will be home friday,
who's that? MY KITTEN! So I'm stoked about that and the fact that ill
have a free check this month. (31 days in this month means 3
checks...the last one will be a freebe) so anywho, I can't decide what I
want to do with the money...shop (I've be dying to change my look), buy
a new computer, or buy some things for my fairly new place. Ahhhh,
decisions...decisions.
Anyway, paris hiltons show 'who wants to be my bff' or whatever the name
of the show is....is utterly the most disgusting display of desperation
I've ever witnessed. I mean do those muther fuckers see themselves?!?!
Fuck that...my ego must be too much... because I can't see myself
competing for some dumb whores friendship....ugh!

Ok so I'm about to go read a book or something....laterrrrrr.

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So I don't have any one to be myself with at the moment and when I say
that, what I mean is...a person that I can talk to about all kind of
random shit that's on my mind. The person that I'd usually do that with
is... being really weird at the moment... I don't know what his deal is
and I'm not that interested in trying to find out. Ehh, well for some
reason my head is filled up with thoughts, ideas, questions, and more
importantly concerns. I don't know if its because of the program I just
sat here and watched or....shit I don't know where its all coming from.

I really hate it when I get like this and I have no one to vent to
[sigh] not saying that there aren't people there who are willing to
listen to me, its just that I don't want a "listener" I want a person to
converse with about all the random shit that's currently on my
mind....and I can't do that with my group of friends because...shit I
just can't.

This is really annoying...

its annoying because I don't have work tonight, I slept all day, and I'm
not in the mood to anything.

So that leaves me with my thoughts ALL FUCKING NIGHT.

I can see how people go crazy when they are forced to stay alone for
hours.

[Justin and I were JUST talking about this]

And you would think..ahh, what a perfect time for yoga! Ehh, I can't
even focus my thoughts long enough to even get up and try yoga as an
alternative.

Fuck.
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I find myself moving further and further away from being in a relationship anytime soon and I blame myself for that. Its not that I don’t get the offers (trust me I do) it’s just that I feel I shouldn’t have to “settle” with anyone. Lets see I’ve been single forrrrrr 8 months now and im fine (I think?) so I just feel as though I’ve gone this long without a boyfriend... why settle now?! With that said I can admit I’ve had a few moments of weakness where I find myself falling for people that I shouldn’t be falling for or filling guys heads up with false hope just so I can be temporarily entertained (I know I know…im horrible) and lately that has been backfiring on me….a few of my ex’s have been victim to me using them for attention and I feel really bad about it but IM A GIRL and girls do that. Ehhh?

Well I think I’ve hit a wall with john, I’ve been talking to him more than anyone lately and things seem to be moving into the friend realm. Because he’s on his stupid “quest for love” and apparently im not going to be apart of that journey due to THE DISTANCE! Ugh! *rolls eyes*

(The pattern with men in different states, you ask? Well bottom line I HATE CLEVELAND MEN. Well all the men I’ve come across just don’t do it for me, they are all pretty much all
alike…”gangsters” ugh! And if they are cool, they are already good friends of mine….. And besides that, there is nothing like a NY steez! Hopefully one day I will come across a man that has me smitten and he is in the same state as me, but it isn’t looking so good at this point)


Back to john, yeah I think he and I just might end up being good friends and I must admit apart of me is bummed about it, but like my grandmother says: “every good looking guy with a nice convo doesn’t have to be your boyfriend” and that is defiantly true…but damn!!! Im going to have to bite my tongue and let this shit ride…. im NOT happy about it tho.


Mr suave and I have been doing swell, but we barely talk because hes always in class and im always sleep or doing some other random shit that takes my attention away from everything. He defiantly gets aggravated by that and this is the reason why we fell out before. One thing that I hateeeeee about mr. suave is that he test me, we went 4 days without talking, so he hits me up on the 5th day and basically says he did that on purpose to see if id hit him up. UGHHH!!! And the thing is I know that in the back of his mind he knew I wouldn’t so it’s like he sets himself up to get upset! And its not because I don’t love him…I defiantly do, but anybody that knows me well is well aware of my attention span and my ability to remember to call someone. Well, I guess he gets it a little bit now because he didn’t get that upset. Ehhh.


Well ill update more laterzzzz

How to start the morning??!?

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http://www.myspace.com/troubleandrew

So everybody keeps asking me who trouble andrew is..i srsly cant believe you guys dont know already!!!!

well, go check him out and tell him applebaum sent you! =]

So I haven't been updating my blog everyday like I told myself I would.
Ehh, bare with me? Welllll a lot of my friends seem to enjoy my
'celibacy in the city' blog ha! I knew you fuck faces would. Anywho, my
days are so regular I don't even have much to blog about. Oh! Me and the
girls are planning a few road trips (boyyyysss here we commmmeeee) lol
the single life comes with perks ;)

So one of the ladys in charge of cleveland fashion week called me a few
days ago... even tho CFW is pretty lame I'm going to try to make it a
good experience. This will be my first year working CFW so I plan on
networking like a mad man, which reminds me I need to get some business
cards made ASAP! Bella and I will be working it together so its
automatically going to be fun, I guess.
We realllllllllllllllyyyyyy want to make new york fashion week, I hope
everything falls into place so we can attend. :-/

Ehh ok be back with updates on my fucked up love life....
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