.

Remember last year when i was a proclaimed "hipster"? Well, thats a term you can no longer identify me with.

From this day forward.....you shall address me by one of the four names; Andy, Applebaum, Andreia, or Appleb.

If you happen to see me around do not point me out by saying " theres that cool chick" ,"theres that fucking loser", "theres that artist", "theres that wannabe DJ", "theres that ex model", "theres that chick who dated (insert name) ect.....

Simple say....
"Oh, there's Andy"


Before i get into my reasons why and what i predict for 09, lets review 08. Okay, 08 was over all a good year for me; i made a few lasting friendships, lost a few friends, got my heart broken twice, had an awesome birthday party, got a new apartment, got a new car, went on a few road trips, learned and became aware of ALOT, and fell in love. (I can keep naming things all night)

So as i said my 08 was pretty good....alot of playing though.

So 09 will be my productive year--towards the end of 08 i got into my zone, so going into 09 i plan to carry it out. My foundation has been built; loving family and friends, home, car, and job. Now its time for me to take things to the next level. *smile*

So i doubt you'll be seeing me in the clubs/bars any time soon.

My New Years Resolution: Productivity.
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So im sunggled in my covers with some yummy hot coco watching 'How The Grinch Stole Christmas' (the original cartoon)

As im watching this i noticed that im fine....and i say that because after my father died christmas became another day when i realized how much i misssed my father so in turn i never had the hoilday spirit--i think ive perfected the art of putting on a front to family/friends when it comes to appearing happy...i can cover my tears with a smile and a joke quicker than you can say bahumbug!

Nah but id just like to say thannnnkk you to all of my wonderful friends who kept my spirits up this winter; Nickie, Aaron, Turri, Deandra, Avi, Yayger, Frankey, and tons of other people.

Oh, and a specialllll thank you to jonathan! Ill simply say thanks for being here. *kissy*


Quick, short, and to the point....i love you fuckers and i wouldnt trade ya for the world.




(I know my post have been kind of short lately. Sorry! I will be picking up my slack in the days ahead)
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Okayyyy so lol well i know alot of you were waiting on me to address this via blog....i didnt want to but im sick of all the questions and concerns.

So if you frequent my myspace page im more than certain you read my comments with a certain somebody acting a damn fool.


*sigh*

Everybody keeps asking me "what happened?" To be perfectly honest i dont know, matter of fact i have no idea.....after talking about it with the guy who started it all he claims it was a joke *straight face* and i know thats a complete lie, so....i dont know wtf is wrong with dude.

One thing i do know....because of him i was made to look like a fool, i was disrespected, annoyed with his actions, and for less of a better term turned off by it all.

And after the conversation i had with him last night......he feels as tho the other guy was to blame when its oh so clear that he didnt start shit. Smh and he also says, im letting some "next-ex" come inbetween our "friendship".

Friendship? Friends dont get jealous of other people who spend more time with me. If your my friend be happy that ive found somebody...dont talk mad shit to the guy and try to push him away from me.

Ughh im sick of even talking about this because i can go on and on about how wrong this guy is. *rolls eyes*

Celibacy and the city? Yea....dont expect to see any of the names i introduced u to

john, mr. Suave, steve, and pablo.
Yea they are all pretty much gone.



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HOT SHIT!




http://www.myspace.com/asherrothmusic

So i know its been a while like i said it would be.....

But its definatly time for an update.

As you know (or maybe you dont) ive in a sense settled down....im still single but ive found a guy that i want to be with but a few things are holding me back.

but as him and i spend more time together all the worries i have fade away day by day.

Sooooo as you know my celibacy in the city joint talked mostly about the men in my life at the time; john, steve, papblo, and Mr. Suave.

Well as of today....

John and i were are always on rocky ground and eventually it ended for good---to the point we arent friends at all.

Pablo was never boyfriend material...i just enjoyed the attention he gave me and looking at him lol (hes so sexy) but hes kind of an airhead.

Steve and i actually got into it really bad today over our situation....and what makes it so bad it ended with him saying "fuck you" if you know me youre well aware i dont take that lightly. After todays convo with Steve, i think its time to put that to an end. nothing will ever come out of our "situation" right now my life is in cleveland and it will be for the next 2 1/2 years. So whatever...it hurts but fuck it.

Annnddd Mr. Suave *sigh* where do i start. This is one man i truly love--its says alot about a person who can stay around you no matter what you may put them through. This past month has been so hard for me because ive had to end a few friendships, go through a heartbreak by a guy who didnt give two fucks about my feelings, and almost losing the guy i might be getting into a relationship with. Mr. Suave stayed right by my side and put aside his feelings to help me cope with mine. Buuuuutttt now that ive found somebody i want to move forward with Mr.Suave doesnt like the fact that he isnt #1 and the lack of attention hes getting. I love this man but the selfish shit has to go! He knows it and hes promised me that hes going to change...so him and i will be friends forever because hes the only man that truly wants to see me happy.

Alot of you enjoy my celibacy and the city blogs and i know what youre thinking "ohhhh shes getting into a relationshipp, no more drammmaaa" lol im not going to stop writing about my love life at all! Even though i know alot of ppl read my blogs for inside info to use against me and they think they are doing something when they run my shit to everybody....

But what you dicks fail to realize IM REAL everything i blog about ive already shared with the men in my life. No secrets here, kiddo.

So fuck you...kiss my ass.

As i said im going to keep doing my celibacy and the city because my love life is fucking crazy and i seem to have a little fan base. Lol

[Celibacy and the city *6: Crazy ex-boyfriends]
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Im off mon, tue, and wed. Im finally going to get some fucking down time.....dude, do you know how happy i am?

Well i have another class on wed @ 9am. But its cool because i will not be coming straight from work then to the class.

*big smile*

Taco bell, love movies, sleep, a new book, gossip, internet----ahhh the good life? I wouldnt have it any other way.

Well, i might go out to a bar or better yet ill do dinner with the girls....ill save partying for new years (new york? Hmmmm im thinking about it hardbody)


Ohhhh i finished that book by sister souljah 'MIDNIGHT a gangster love story'

My review? It was iight! I hatttttte the way it ended, because it didnt really end.....a situation happened and he was about to go take care of it and just like that it was over.....no explination on what went down, how he was going to slove the problem....all of the doors were left opened.

And this sister souljah chick is known for taking mad long to come out with a book. Ugh.....dont waste your time buying the book....borrow it from a friend or hit the LB because in my opinion it isnt worth the $26 bucks.


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Yo ive been having this situation on my mind HEAVY. for the past few days ive been feeling like im being lied to.

I think this is the worst feeling you can ever have....my mind has been wondering non-stop. My mom said im on some CSI shit lol

Well anyways....Im not going to put the situation out there because a few "outsiders" have brought this shit to my attention and i cant tell what their motives are ---looking out for me or trying to ruin things for me.

*sigh* but deep down something is telling me shit isnt right and im being lied to hard body.

Dude, let me find out....lol im going to try and break people down left and right. I know it sounds mean but im in a position where my feelings are being put out there--and ive given this person a chance to tell the truth and they held their ground...so if i find out it is a lie and this person never proves that they are telling the truth....ITS A WRAP.

But if it is proven to me that they told the truth from jump....im going to admit my wrong doing.

But i dont think thats going to happen.

Well as of now i cant decide if i want to stick around and see what the outcome is or keep it moving without looking back.


.....I really dont want this shit to get ugly.
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So, last night i had a dream about Andy.......Andy Warhol. As most of you know Andy Warhol is my favorite artist, not only that one of my favorite people period. I simply adore this man.

He was an innovater, life long learner, social networker, and consummant scenster.

As id like to think i am too. Lol

*sigh* if only i could go back to the 70's

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I want this....like REALLY BAD.
Hmmmm, it shall be mine by the end of the month.
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Its raining outside =)

Ughhhh!!! Im in this boring ass class. Im mean, well not really im just quiet and i hate when old people try to force a conversation out of me. Hi and bye is all u suckas need lol

When i go home....dude! Im going straight to sleep....i said id return phone calls today and catch up on gossip.

sorry about the lack of communication,homies.... Work/ preparing for school/ and jonathan has been taking up all of my tiz-ime. Lol

This class is so damn stupid......
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Well im not mad anymore-- i actually got over it that same day. But i must admit its pretty lame when i stop and realize the art/graphic desing portfolio ive been working on for the past 3yrs has been deleted forever at the hands of my non-thinking mother.

Have i learned from my mistake? Yes!

Whatever.


So, Between yesterday and today ive been extremely busy i got tons of things done today that i should have done months ago. *sigh* it feels so good to be semi-responsiable =)

Tomorrow will be another busy day, im at work now (12am) and i dont get off till (2pm) =( i have a stupid ass CPR/ First aid class in the morning, i have to take it so i can get my raise. BLAH! (I will be blogging and myspacing mad hard to relieve some of the boredum)

I also plan on going christmas shopping tomorrow. Ugh! I usually online it up but i need some cardio in my life.....i hope the lines arent long.

Okay buddies conan is off its time for me to get some rest.....ill blog it up tomorrow, bews.




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My fucking mom just called me and told me that shes getting EVERYTHING removed from the computer.

Meaning:

Photoshop
My artwork
Photography
Letters
Papers
Pictures
MUSIC

Everything and i mean everything that i value is on that computer.

Mad is an understatement.
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Who do i love more than Trouble Andrew? His girlfriend Santogold!

I loveeeeee her album! Check it out because i said so. :)
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Im worried about women this day in age. Hmmmm, im not all together by any means but it has come to my attention that chicks are FUCKED UP.

Tonight i had a guy say to me something along the lines of "oh, i didnt talk to you then because i didnt want to but now i do....so take that or tell me you never want me to call u again"

I straight up told his ass to never dail my number again.

After i hung up the phone i started thinking to myself -- damn he was dead ass serious and he had no problem saying that bullshit. He was mad calm like he was saying some regular everyday shit like "how are u today?" Then im thinking what type of insecure chicks does/did he fuck with that had him thinking what he said was normal? Like my reaction shouldnt have been "what the fuck?"

Either he thinks hes gods gift to women or bitches really got him gassed up.

But nahhh lemme think for a second. ..........

Its not his fault....its definatly these females fault...like yall really allow shit like that to rock. I have mad male friends and they pretty much tell me stories like this on a daily.

Like, yayger for instance (my whiteboy ike as i like to call him) well just the other day he sent me a convo he had with some chick over aim (he knows i have a sick sense of humor and i laugh at people who are stupid). The convo was him dropping bitch bombs and calling her every name under the sun pretty much and her asking why is he being mean to her and later on down the line she asked him what time should she pick him up from work.

Lmao....

Im saying!!!??? What kind of backbone does she haveee???? I love yayger but his ass would have been at work with no way home!

People say im prideful and ill be the first to admit i have a ego...but at the end of the day ill never be somebodies fool and thats for damn sure.

Ladies (plz excuse my vulgar mouth) grab ur pussy and stop lettin men walk all over you! No guy should have the power of lowering you to nothing.

Pfft! I need to be the head of the she woman man haters club or something. Lol jp i love boys boys boysssss when they act right.....i hope something changes within u females (maybe beyonces new album will help out) because im sick of losing good guys because u stupid chicks has them thinking they are all mighty king ding a ling.

On another note i talked to my buddy dre-ski tonight...hes a pretty cool cat lol it so relaxing having a real conversation with a fellow artist who looks upon art the same way i do (we keep secrets and shit) lol annnnnddd we are gonna go to kirpalu* together but diffrent ones because if we end up at the same one we jusssst might get kicked out the same day....cracking mad jokes and shit lol.

You on ponit tip?
Yo all the time phife !
You on point tip?
Pfft all the time phife!

Lol bet cha dont know that sonnnnggg.
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This blog has no real point behind it....I just feel like rambling I guess.

So I've been working a lot of overtime at work. Its really starting to fuck with me....I'm not getting enough sleep (I work 3rd shift) which in turn makes me snappy and easily annoyed....but I gotta get this money--so oh well.
I'm starting to question if a relationship is something I really want....for the past few days he's been dealing with his ex's and shit.....and to be honest--im really NOT trying to deal with it. I'm so sick of bitches having their eyes on something I have/want. *sigh* wouldn't it be great if you met somebody with NO baggage? Ahhh, must be nice. Next person I talk to is going to be ugly as shit lol I'm always going to the eyecandy. Lol!!!!

Do you ever get the feeling your being lied to? I've been getting that feeling more than usual lately....no bueno! =(

Anyway, for the past week or so I've been wearing my hair straight, I really forgot how much of a headache this shit is but I'm gonna keep my promise to myself. (Trying change my look up a bit) you men have no idea how hard it is to be "cute" us girls go through ohhhh soooo muchhhhh. Lol


I've been reading this book 'MIDNIGHT a gangster love story' and I'm actually enjoying it. Werid? Yeah, I know. Its not lame like I thought I would be I guess all the hype is correct about Sister Souljah. Ehhh, who knew?

Go download Danny Browns album Hot Soup. I've been listening to it like crazy for the past week....I think u can download it from his myspace page for free if I'm not mistaken...idk his myspace url either lol so google it!

Ok, I'm on the phone...so bye bye!



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Apparently, a few people think I'm "prideful".

*str8 face*


I don't know if I fully agree with that statement, no surprise right? Lol no but bottom line....

I feel as though I have no reason to say "sorry" if I'm not....sorry! I don't know about you but my mom taught me "don't apologize if you don't mean it"

You're not getting a "I'm sorry" out of me if I'm not sorry.


Mean? Maybe....real? Yes!

Wait I will say this.....*ahemmm* if in the time I've known you (speaking to all of you) and I've done or said something that HURT you.....I'm sorry that my actions brung hurt upon you. My intentions are never to hurt you but it seems the truth can be painful here and there....idk its life I guess. *pats u on the back*

Lol.....I'm serious but I can't stop smiling. I think I'm smiling bacause I can just hear jonathen talking shit....lol (he's the one that called me prideful)


Blahhhhh bbl with some updizzles!


Oh WELCOME BACK Nickie Billions!!!!! Lol.
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Ehhh, not my usual kind of book...but a friend at work urged me to read it.

'MIDNIGHT a gangster love story'

Ehh....we'll see....ill let u know what I think halfway through.
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Okay so while roaming blogspizzle...I bumped into a blog that I like to read from time to time. And the subject of "sneaker heads" came up.

I must admit I'm especially sick of this fad and the people who claim to live a lifestyle just because its the new "it" thing. When I say lifestyle what I mean is people who have been into sneakerks hard body since they were kids and the people who pretend to be that way that just blue a whole months income on sneakers and have claimed to been collecting since they were younger.

So the guy was going on saying how he's sick of it and then he
says this "right now you will see a girl with jordans who has never seen mike play and doesn't even know where he's coming from"

Okay, so, this is where I raise my eyebrow.

So after he says that he goes on to say how he doesn't identify himself with anything he's just always loved sneakers... And then he said you should wear what you like, blah....blah...blah!

So at this point I'm thinking to myself okay this guy has lost himself in this hype aswell.

Okay as I said above it is very annoying to see people pretending to live a LIFESTYLE that isn't true to them and they are simply doing it to appear "deep" I'm guessing? And I totally understand why people who've actually been living that "hypebeast" life since they copped their first pair of jordans on christmas when they were 5 and have been sticking with sneakers every since then are mad by all of this craze.

BUT! Bottom line niggas can't assume every person who walks by with a pair of jordans on are pretending to be a "hypebeast"..."Sneaker head" or whatever. And as far as him saying "you will see a girl with a pair of jordans on and she's never seen him play yada yada yada" come on mannnnn.......I mean I shouldn't have to go into detail as to why that statement is pure and utter stupidity.

The crazy part is, right after that he goes on to say "just wear what u like" okay, let's say for instance this girl didn't know who jordan was but she still copped the sneakers.......fuck, what if she just liked them? What if she had a shirt that went with them perfect? Now all of sudden she's a "poser"?

Fuck outta here.....

I study fashion, its what I go to school for. So let me just say this...there is a MAJOR differance between following fashion and being a poser. I don't knock a person who follows fashion AT ALL and neither can you self-proclaimed "hypebeast" because you doing it everytime you go shopping. Yall getting mad hype over regular ass people who wear a nice pair of sneakers from time to time and me being one of those regulars I'd like to say on behalf of us regular people....

*ahem*

Shut the fuck up and stop beastin over the hype!!!!!!

I'm 5'10 without shoes....sometimes I don't want to be 6'1 with my heels on....maybe I want to just kick back with a nice pair of supra's on or even some sb's.....but since I do that I'm a poser!?!?!?

Ugh! I think the only sain people left are us regulars....the rest of you posers and hypebeast alike are lost in the maddness.

Smh.....now get mad and all butt hurt because I pulled ur card.
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Its 6:53a.m I'm at work and I've just finished reading 'The power of now' by Eckhart Tolle. Reading this book has changed my preception of time immensly. My questions on time didn't arise while reading this book...but very much before. Carpe Diem seems like the only sain way to live but its sooooo hard to grasp.

(Carpe Diem means seize the day in latin, for those who don't know)

Well being that its such a hard way of living -- but in my mind the only real way to live...I got it tattoed on my wrist about a year ago to remind me how I want to live...you know the old saying "out of sight out of mind" well I thought to myself if I see it everyday throughout the day it will become almost second nature for me to live that way.

Has it worked? To an extent....oddly enough I don't pay my wrist much attention. Lol no but seriously....in the past few months I've become blind sighted on my beliefs and immersed myself in my unconscious mind.

What's the unconscious mind?
The unconscious mind is living through it as a means of identification..... Basically the unconscious mind is that which creates concepts, labels, images, words, and judgements that blocks everything that is true...like love, beauty, creativity, joy, and so on.

When you're in this state of mind--your mind is pretty much using you because you are unconsciously identifed with it...you're victim to your own mind.

So tonight after finishing this book and going over my life-situation...I then realized the only way I can deactivate this way of thinking is by first realizing the realm of intelligence outside of my own mind but instead understand with my being. (If that makes sense) and secondly watching vs reacting (that's another topic for a later date) ehh, this is all very simple its just a matter of becoming conscious of what you already know.


Yea...I shall talk about this more later. My work shift is coming to its end I'm ready to run the fuck up outta here.
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my intentions are not to offend anybody and going into this I want you to know that this blog is a form of me expressing my opinion.

So everyday when I get off work...I go home and turn to the steve wilkos show, it comes on at 10a.m and most of the time I'm in around 9:45a.m and the 400 club is going off.

Okay, so if u don't know I'm spiritual and NOT religious....whatever whatever. So for the past few weeks this has been my routine and I have no problem sitting there watching the old people who host the show sit and talk about things that are in the bible and answer emails....no biggie.

But today...I got pissed. So during the show a lady writes in asking "I have a college professor who is a preist and he says that every religious faith leads to god. I don't agree, is that statement true" so at that point I'm all into it because I want to see wtf this nut job is going to respond with because the look he has on his face is total disgust.

So this nigga says "NO! How can that be true!? The (can't remember the exact religion) have over 2,500 gods. So how can they be on the path to the real god? (He laughs) ALL
RELIGIONS DONT LEAD TO GOD"

Sooooo at that point I'm pretty much pissed. This man happens to be of the christian faith and I know all christians don't think that way...but I'm looking at it like this, they have given this man a show and its been on for some years so people must think that same way.

They really have you people brain washed with all the riff raff they are feeding you. I'm not religious by any means but I'd never knock the way somebody else pratices their religion...its fucking bullshit. NOBODY has the right answer. Most of you are following a religion because you mom does or your favorite celebrity does.....you people fail to educate yourselves and you run with the hype.

You people go off of what is politically correct and not what your own heart says is correct. And its fucked up that they have this fuckin nut on national t.v basically saying if you're not a christian you've got it all wrong and ur not on the right path to god.

It saddens me and it makes me want to write a fucking angry note to the producers of the show.

Ugh!! Ill write more on this later.
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Okay enough with all the 'drama' let's talk about some real shit. So next month school starts and I still have to go meet with my advisor to turn in a few papers and pay my fee's and shit.

While I was preparing all of the things that needed to be turned in, I realized this is REALLY about to happen. Its been a while since I've been in school I'm sooooooo excited, I feel like a 5 year old lol.

So next week I doubt ill be updating this blog, I wait till the last minute to do shit and next week is pretty much the last minute.


(Gosh I wish I had my laptop, this would all be so much easier)



On another note....I've been using my blackberry to update my blog and I definatly see that a sidekick and a blackberry are two diffrent worlds! I like them both, but I sidekick shits on a berry when it comes to the messengers....granted the berry has the built in messenger for blackberry owners but I only know like 3 people with a berry...sooooo whatever. And then again the browser on this thing kills the sidekick and with me not having my P.C its an awesome thing...and I really have to get use to this keypad so excuse my typo's!!!!! Ehh I think ill keep them both....but as weird as this might sound I feel lame having 3 phones (yea there's another one) but whatever it is what it is.


Ill update later tonight!
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My night took so many diffrent turns it ended up being a VERY emotional night and not good emotional.

The blog that I wrote seemed to have attract a lot of negative attention and it sparked a few people as well. A friend told me that I should put a end to celibacy and the city and all other blogs talking about the men in my life, I actually thought about it all last night and I've decided that I'm not going to erase anything or discontinue to write about my "love" life.

Bottom line is...I'm REAL and I have nothing to hide. A lot of the people I talk about in my blog know exactly where I stand and how I operate.....it seems to be that as much as people say they respect people who are real its all really a front because when faced with what's real they can't take it.

My night was filled with a lot of crying and second guessing myself....I'm ashamed to even say that because I've been true to myself throughout all of this. My feelings will remain the same as well as my thought process. I'm human and mistakes will be made...but you can't front on me because I told you what was up from DAY ONE.

This is not being mean, stuck up, or selfish....this is being honest. If you can't handle the content of my blogs....the answer is simple DONT READ THEM.

Also, to the men featured in my blog...I know that a few of you read my blog and that's not going to stop me from writing what I want.


Smh...I can't believe some of you.
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So I'm apart of a gang....yes...its true. I always tell you people I'm a gangster but none of you thought it was true. Well about 2yrs ago I joined the M gang and for the past year I've been in it by myself when me and the leader had a falling out but he's back so I'm not alone anymore... His name is MATTY! A lot of you don't know this but matty pretty much named me andy....but now he calls me mandy because in the gangster ass M gang you name has to begin with a M. Lol

Matty and I are pretty cool...aren't we? Yea son...I know.

*for u dick faces this blog is pure sarcasim*
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Okay, sooooo I know this is something that Ive never done! Ill put my
love life business out there but only to an extent...I ALWAYS use fake
names just to keep things under wraps a little bit.

But I want to talk about the guy above a bit. I also want people to know
who I'm talking about because I feel as though people need to know and
apparently a few people are on that "ohhhh applebaum has him so let me
see if I can get him" bullshit.

Smh...

Well back to what I was saying. This guy has really been a change of
pace for me... and I say that because ill admit I'm not use to feeling
"special". Now don't get me wrong, I've had the men in my life do nice
things for me but at the end of the day its more or less a "aww how nice
of him". With jay its totally diffrent...you know how you get that
feeling when you say or do something for someone and they are so
appreciative you can feel it without them even saying it? Or u can just
feel love without it even being said?....that's the feeling I get from
him.

He understands that I'm not the "typical" chick and like I told him
anybody who can put up with my shit...pfft! Definatly needs to be close
to my heart. I feel as though I've found a really strong friendship or
whatever it is that we have within him...he isn't expecting anything
from me but the love I show him on a daily basis.... and apparently that
keeps him happy, who knew? Lol its so weird to know that you are the
reason why someone smiles and you're the reason why they are happy, when
you're not doing anything other than being yourself.

Just recently jay and I have been putting our friendship out there and
our friendship isn't platonic by any means....we talk to each other as
if we are in a relationship and I've noticed that it has a lot of people
uncomfortable...and all I can say is...well really there is nothing I
can say because being single, I owe no one an explination. We also
noticed a lot of his past women are trying to get back in the picture
and again....there is nothing I can say.

Oh...wait! I will say this...don't hurt yourself ladies.

Jay *love sigh* lol its crazy but we have been through a lot within this
past month and I can't believe u are still here dealing with me and my
bullshit...I'm really happy to have ur love at this point in my life
when I'm finding out the people that I've been holding close to my
heart are the people who don't deserve to be there. You've expressed to
me that I've helped you regain happiness in your life and I'm
sooooooooooo flattered that you found all of that within me. You make me
believe that REAL love is very much possible! You never judge me, you
never question me or my motives, you allow me to be myself, you never
pay outside bullshit much attention, and you always show me love even
when I don't deserve it.

Sometimes when I'm around you I feel complete in a sense or better yet
<i>whole<i>...the feeling becomes so intense that the rest of the world
fades into insignificance...no matter what comes of our friendship I
want you to know and understand that I truly appreciate you!! from the
random calls just to say "andy I miss you" or to the sneaking around
calling my loved ones trying to figure out the best christmas gift to
get me. =] I wouldn't trade u for the world and I wouldn't want things
any other way than what they are now (well maybe we can change a fewwww
things lol)

You are loved and appreciated!!!!!!!!
See you in Africa (inny)

Love,
Andreia!

P.S. Ashton says "I love u too" lol
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Okay, so yea, I know I'm late! But that's not going to stop me from
expressing how much I LOVE this album....to me its kanYe's best work. I
know a lot of you might disagree buttttt whatever. My favorite song is
number 8 'Street Lights'....that song is verrrryyyy relatable..... I'm
my case anyway. Their isn't one song on this album that I dislike which
is rare for me...and to be honest I'm not a very big kanYe fan to begin
with....ehh, but that has changed.

Motivation--

So growing up I was, for less of a better term 'spoiled'. I never had to
do much of anything in my junior high school years...I didn't have to do
anything until I was about 16 and then it was only washing the dishes
and keeping my room cleaned (never did clean my room) so from 16 until
21 that was my life. My moms biggest concerns were for me were to
graduate from high school, obtain a good job, and not to get pregnant.
My family never stressed the importance of college or being on my
own....I never even had to catch the bus!!!

Back then I thought I had it good...but now it has really FUCKED MY ASS
UP. The transition from young adult to adult has been hard as hell for
me...ugh! But its getting wayyy better with time.

So with all of that I've had to push myself in the right directions and
learn from my dumb ass friends mistakes. I have a older brother and
sister but they aren't in my life....so being the oldest I've had no one
to look to for answers. Self-motivation is so HARD! And sometimes I feel
myself falling behind but with the help of my loving fabulous friends my
slump doesn't last long..... But I hate when it even comes along.

I think that's why I like 'street lights' so much.

"See I know I my destination but I'm just not there."

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A test
Applebaum--
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Is a test
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So uhhh, the other night I wrote a blog that was kinda..."out there" but
for some reason it didnt post. Ehh well, [revrun] what ya gonna
do?[/revrun]

On another note, this week has started out VERY eventful. I'm starting
to see how wack people in my life really are-- but after talking and
thinking about it, I'm not sweating it at all. Ill just sit back and
watch these fraud ass niggas fuck themselves over. Ugh! I'm sorry... I'm
such a potty mouth right now....I'm still kinda upset.

Other than that...its winter time and guys are going EXTRA hard...I see
nobody wants to be alone when its cold outside because if one more of my
ex boyfriends come @ me on some next shit.....its gonna be all bad
homie.

Lol@ me. I'm doing a lot of venting...I must have woke up on the wrong
side of the bed.

Lets ramble a bit.....
*So I don't know how I feel about it being dec.

*matter of fact, I do know... I'm not to fond of it.

*am I the only person extra excited about x-mas music playing on the
radio?!

*not having a computer has been kicking my ass and throwing my schedule
off tremendously. School starts jan. 9th and I deffffff need my laptop
up and running. Ughhhhh!

*my apartment is getting better and better with each month.

*I drank that beer...so my fridge is empty. Lol

*I miss talking to ______ .

*the net will be added to my blackberry tomorrroooowww!!! YESHHHHH! Fuck
this sidekick.

*being a loner isn't so bad.

*sorry about all the swearing* lol
Applebaum--
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